“I’m too old for this.” That is what I told myself as I was applying to become an ambassador for Tara.
She chose me anyway.
That is also how I felt when first meeting the other ambassadors. I had at least 20 years on most of them. They were all so young and gorgeous. I was a premenopausal grandma.
It seems for years I’ve allowed the fashion and beauty industry to program me into believing that youth is synonymous with sexy. All the teenage, nubile models and actresses gracing the runways, advertisements for wrinkle creams and anti-aging serums telling us not to grow old gracefully, trying to force us to compare and compete instead of embracing ourselves and our own natural, unique beauty while having the ability to appreciate the many accomplishments our aging bodies have given us.
“I’m too old for this.” I thought walking into my very first photo shoot. However, as I warmed up and Tara started posing me and taking photos, I started to realize that age really has nothing to do with beauty. Every woman is sexy. Beauty is not limited or determined by age. Age and maturity are just as erotic as youthful sensuality.
And those photos helped boost my confidence!
As soon as I saw that first gallery, I was anxious to do another shoot. It was a reawakening to all the power, beauty, and vigor inside me.
I may not be 20 years old anymore, but through my time doing boudoir I’ve realized age is just a number and the years of experience and wisdom that shine through my beauty only add to the fire in me.
The next time I think “I’m too old for this,” is the exact moment I will get up and do it.
